Saturday, June 6, 2009
060609; 13.44pm
It all came to an end. I knew smth is nt ryt days ago. Frm now on, we'l go our separate ways. I noe u still hv feelings 4 me, if nt, u will not b afraid 2 meet me. All these while, lotz of ups and downs. All of us thought tt we'd last, bt nevertheless, we didnt. Uncle, im sry. Wadeva i'd promised u, i no longer can fulfill it ardy. I'l visit u whenever i kan.
All d memories we have, deeply etched in my mind. No1 kan replace u in my hart. Mayb u think it's impossible 4 us 2 b tgt again, bt sry 2 say tt, i'l wait. Idk y. Someday, u'l come to realise, who love u most is me. Thx 4 all d memories u'd gave me. For d sake of u, i promised i'l live on. Cuz someday, we'l definitely meet again. I feel loved and very fortunate 2 hv u. And am very sry 4 throwing my tantrums all dis while. Nw tt things r over, u'l a carefree guy once again. I juz hope u kan treat me lyk how u treat ya other frenz. Chat wv me on d fone n reply my smses. Tts all i wan frm u now.
As for me, life will still goes on. U'r right. This is not d end of d wrld yet. I'l complete my mission in life. I'l be fine. My hart now juz feel so dead. Tears cnt stop rolling down. I hv lost my soul once again. But, i'l stil hv d same mindset. I still think we'r fated to b tgt. Juz wait, time will tell everything. Ppl, sry if i've to fake a smile infrnt of u guys frm now on. The usual Hui Qing is dead.
To passerby.
U may think u'd hope since things turn out this way. Bt it stil kinda impossible to b possible yet. Idk wad will happen in d future. Bt for now, its stil a No. Why not u juz find sm1 who deserve u more rather den keep waiting 4 me? Even if we were to stead 1 day, i noe it's not gona b d same. My hart is really dead now. I no longer kan feel happy. All i feel now is sad, miserable, wadeva terrible feelings u kan think of. I rly dunoe wad 2 say, expect 4 mayb sorry? Cuz d guy tt i love, dun love me as much as i love him; and d guy tt love me so much, im unable 2 love him. See? Its rly dificult for me. Its ok 4 u 2 console me, bt not anything beyond tt. U state in ya email tt protecting me is ya duty for now; bt hey! Its not ya duty, cuz u r nt my bf. Oryt, I will grant ya wish for once. Bt dun eva try 2 do anyting funny. Dun try 2 cheer me up if i dun tok 2 u. I juz wan 2 b alone 4 nw.
