Monday, January 16, 2012
I'm currently blogging now wv an iPad, while hubby is surly sleeping beside me. Damn! Body clock always go haywire aft a round of night shift.
I guess the beginning of my 2012 isn't that fantastic at all.
Especially, work.
Somehow, I just can't perform to the eyes of expectation.
Expectation of me being 1 of the best, smart, bla bla bla.
Some things just can't be published here.
Whatever it is, I hope after my 2 weeks of ALs, everything will be a fresh start.
And if I am still around during nurses' day, I will thank 2 ppl for doing everything for me.
What I can do is to show my appreciation through actions.
Actions definitely speak louder than words.
I have not really be happy ever after since.
Can't slp and eat much.
My heart felt so heavy every single time.
And I hate this feeling!
I just hope that I will be able to bury this shitty feeling one fine day.
Tho nursing wasn't my 1st choice in the 1st place,
Tho i cried when I know I am put to nursing course,
Tho I hate clinical attachment during student days,
It all slowly faded.
I am proud to be one.
My passion grew day by day, bit by bit.
Seeing smiles from my patients, being their advocate, receive compliments from them and supervisor, working with a bunch of awesome colleuge, all my effort are worth.
Some things r just too difficult to tell my loved ones about certain issues,
Thus I can onli rant it in this small space to mk myself feel a little better.
I will just pray.
Signing off,
Sotong
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Hey guys!
Gosh, i know, been mths since i last updated!
Dun wry, am trying to blog backward instead, if u noe wad i meant.
Well, had been eager to blog few weeks ago,
but i just cnt bring myself to blog.
And yes!
I am back in woodlands ryt nw.
Awww.....
its been close to 2 mths since i last came back. :x
been busy.
with work, wad else??
Rly amazing, i've been wv SGH for omost 8 mths.
i passed my probation. tehehe.
Getting a hang of it ardy.
new nurses cuming in oso.
muhaha...
me no longer the "baby-est" anymore. :p
Am really inspired by those celebrity blogger and those who make beauty vidz on Youtube.
their $$$ roll in as simple as typing an entry, editing vidz and photoshopping photos.
how cool is tt?!
and u gt many various sponsors to travel, to try on new things.
i think tt's the best source of earning $.
i now i'l nv be 1 of them.
but looking at how successful these ppl are, rly mk me envy.
alrite folks, tym 4 me to gt some slp in my awesome bed!
till then, bye!
noe wad, it's rly SHIOK to off on sat, sun and mon. :D
signing off,
sotong
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
FUCK!
u'r rly too much.
fancy sleeping while i am crying away!!!
i had been tolerating, did u know???
what have i done to be treated this way???
strong sense of insecurity.
u just dont care no matter how much i try to put across the message.
i dunwan to compare the present with the past.
but this is rly too much!
izit tt difficult to probe further to understand the situation better?
i rly had no idea how long i can tolerate.
u rly dun understand me AT ALL.
and u nv even try to.
FML!
reflect what if i treat u this way!
hoping u will someday realise, but i guess u nv will.
Monday, August 29, 2011
Hi peeps,
i know. i've neglected my blog for almost 2 mths.
to mk up for it, let's gt started. :D
currently, not much difference frm the last tym i blogged.
life's been the same.
work, play, sleep.
am in my 4th mths in work now.
so far so good.
:D
tmr is betrothal day.
gonna be very busy.
shall tk lotz of pict tmr. :D
will be taking my AL in just a couples of days tym.
happy! :D
stepping into another phrase of life v v soon.
cnt bear to leave my lovely home. :(
tym to spring clean my house.
i always said tt, but haha, lazy to do.
oppz~~~
k la, tym to nap awhile.
will b back 4 more updates.
xoxo
signing off,
sotong
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Just had a bowl of macaroni.
loves*
had been craving for it ever since dear cooked tt for my brkfast b4 gg for wrk.
hehe.
life's been the same.
except maybe in work.
started to tk the role as an in-charge of 6 patients @ the 2nd or 3rd wk in ward.
tt's lyk damn damn fast!
the April batch havent even start to be incharge when it's my 1st time to be.
tt's rly crazy.
so far, so gd i guessed.
of cuz, many things to learn still.
JY!
Feel so great receiving my 1st full time job pay. :D
treated dear to his beloved seafood @ ECP lagoon.
how lucky!
shall spent it wisely as we'r kinda financially tight now.
nida share the burden with dear since im ardy wrkin.
i dun think its ryt for guys to pay everything even for wedding.
i just hope i can ease as much as burden tt dear is carryin nw.
tough indeed.
went to see our wedding shot layout ytd.
it was fantastic!
thumbs up for our photographer, xiaoxin! :D
will be collecting it on 8 august or so.
excited!
as for the rest of the things, still in the midst of planning and sourcing.
i noe, abt 2 months pluz only
nervous seh.
so many things to organize,
headache! >.<
kinda regret not to start work only aft wedding.
AL for this yr is only 14 days.
might hv to postpone honeymoon. :(
finally bought the book that i have looked for high & low.
Low Kay Hwa- For That Day. :D
He's 1 of the author which i would definitely buy all the books written.
i wana go shopping too.
gt $, but no time.
gt time, but no1 to accompany.
sigh.
y cnt all of us lead a simple life?
its society tt mould us who we are today.
signing off,
sotong
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Hey peeps, im back.
always wanted to update, bt cnt seem to find time to do so.
Foundation Programme (FP for short) is already in the midst of ending.
how sad. :(
gonna miss sitting in the old pathology lab, drawing and munching away during boring lessons.
no more 8am-430pm from Mon-Fri soon.
no more 8am-1215pm on Sat soon as well.
shift work.
hate it.
its my 3rd day in the ward tdy.
feel kinda "handicapped" there, experiencing serious cultural shock.
the entire place is so stranger to me, and the workflow, their equipment.
drastic differences from where i were.
cnt imagine how i can perform SN job where i cnt even do a proper EN job.
demoralizing.
its nt tt i dunhv the skills to perform the tasks,
just tt the differences rly make the whole thing go "gaga".
shall nt elaborate much here.
i understand tt dis thing happen is cuz it's onli the initial period.
its a new enviroment, dif way of doing things and dif equipment used.
im giving myself till Dec.
if by then im still ranting all abt this here, den i might tk permanent leave.
wel, if u noe wad i mean.
of cuz, i do hope nothing of this sort will happen.
wana thank those who have given me their endless motivation & encouragement.
w/o all these, i think i'll brk dwn even faster.
gv me more strength to overcome pls.
signing off,
sotong
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
OFFICIALLY GRADUATED!!! :D
24 May 2011 is 1 of the most significant event in my 20 yrs of life.
it kinda mark the v end of my student days unless i decide to further my studies nxt tym.
1st time attending such official graduation ceremony and wearin the graduation robe. :D
congratz all who hv graduated.
wel, let the pict do the talking.
*reciting the Nurses' pledge*
*Me & Senior Amanda :D*
*waiting 4 our turns to be on stage*
*Nervous +++++++*
*a few shots aft we leave*
*sis insisted must hv a solo photo of me*
*goody bag from Syaf. so swt. :D*
aftdat head to cwp's KFC for dinner.
finger lickin gd!
p.s: imy school.
signing off,
sotong
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
"We'r experiencing technical difficulty on 1 of our customer management servers, and mobile services to some of our customers are temporarily disrupted. We would like to express our deep apologies for the inconvenience caused. Pls be assured tt we are putting all available resources to promptly rectify this issue.".
So yea, if u'r a M1 user like me, u might be affected by this.
its damn irritating cuz u cnt kol or sms. :x
its ardy like 3 hours since im being affected.
i hope thet get it fixed ASAP.
T.T
signing off,
sotong
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Helloooo~~~~~
came back from SGH nt long ago.
im tired, but shall blogged b4 i nap a while.
collected my name tag & uniform just nw.
:D
happy+++
finally, STAFF NURSE.
16 May.
a day where i start my career.
shall build it up step by step.
just hope i an gt into a nice ward,
wv nt-so-bad ppl in there.
u noe, old timers like to ostracize newbies.
but they forgotten they were once a newbie too.
boo!!!
collected my graduation gown wv deardear ytd too.
bought a cute bear @ only $12.
:D
gonna brng it for photo taking on tt day itself.
went for outdoor shoot on the 9th.
the weather was freaking scorching hot!!!!
but, it was damn fun.
esp to have such a nice photographer.
i will nv forget those moments.
cant wait for photo selection.
did nth much for the whole entire holiday.
except for enjoying myself to the fullest.
4 more days left.
reluctant.
shall go nap nw.
xoxo
signing off,
sotong
Friday, April 29, 2011
To-do-list checked:
1. sweep & mop bedroom - DONE
2. clean toilet - DONE
3. laudry - DONE
4. rearrange photos in lappy into folder - DONE
YAY!!!
all the "t0-do" for today are complete.
a pat on my shoulder man! :D
another awesome day to slack @ hme today.
cuz it's a rainy day.
*loves it*
time to nap awhile..
xoxo
signing off,
sotong
